Brighton by me by moonlight.

Made it through one week at my new job. Yayyyyyy!

It’s glum city at the nopoke nest this weekend; tired from a long week of long days, then back to work Saturday morning to help invigilate exams. I have a sketchbook i’ve been putting off completing for over a fucking month which I know I need to get completed today, when I feel I need to sort out what the fuck i’m doing work-wise. Ugh.

Work: My new workplace has been totally shite at giving me what I need to do my job – most schools do an induction before you start, giving you all the log ons, data, door codes, ordering info etc. that you need to do the basics; i’m still finding out how to do everything, and it gets a bit tiring to keep being bouncy and positive meeting new people.

On the plus side, my colleagues have been incredibly helpful – other teachers, admin staff, my line manager; everyone seems very friendly, and it’s an adult workplace – plenty of swearing and colourful complaining about children and parents. Yes, of course, we had that at my last place, but straightforwardly and openly describing rude, annoying kids as “shits” would never, ever happen. It’s a refreshing change! Also, people seem to socialise – much as I usually turn such things down, I actually went to the pub after school on Friday. Didn’t do that once in eight years at my last workplace.

The department needs a huge amount of work in terms of sorting shit out – it’s full to bursting with boxes and jars of this-and-that with gadgets everywhere. It’s awesome that we have a 3D printer, but what I really want to know is where the fuck the paintbrushes live? Christ. Anyway, I feel like I have very little handle on what’s going on – I need to spend time thinking deeply about what changes I want to make, but it’s so full-on that I think surviving for the first year will be achievement enough, not to mention that the department is expected to get ridiculously high grades :/

Things have gotten slightly easier as the week has gone by, but there’s a parents evening this week, after-school meetings, and university statements to sort out. I also have to teach haha. I’m not used to such long days – get in at 7.45am, leave at 5.30pm when I get chucked out, then another couple of hours at home. I know it won’t be like this forever but boy, I will be glad when it’s half term.

Also, I need a fucking haircut.

Oh and my uni presentation went well – much as I thought I rushed it and found it very difficult to talk, I got really positive feedback and didn’t fail – quite the opposite in fact :)

And I went to Brighton for Leia Ewok Village’s birthday, got ill and came home early.

And went on a date with a guy where there were uncomfortable silences as I struggled to know what to talk about. Thanks but no thanks.

And me and OKCupid recently celebrated our five-year anniversary together. Seven dates in five years.


2 Responses to Week

  1. s says:

    Hi M!

    I am on travel from New Mexico to Washington, D.C., and, as I do, surfed over to your page to see what was up. Please accept my congratulations on your new job! Very wonderful news – same goes for the studio space. Now, I know your site, and I know your writing, but I don’t know “you;” however, when I read that you proposed – and won – creative space, are in that creative space, and are getting positive feedback from passersby that your creating is admirable, I have to imagine that you must be just a little happy about that. Same goes for the camaraderie at work. Now, camaraderie is a tricky thing, keep your friends close and enemies closer as they say, but co-workers who help you learn the ropes? That’s a valuable thing. To me, the outsider looking in, I have to say that you seem to be doing that which makes you happy. And I am glad for you on that. And I mean very glad for you. Your past writings painted a picture of a giving creative soul that was quite unfulfilled. It was difficult to read about such a struggle when juxtaposed against your creative musings and postings. Here’s to this chapter in your life being one that blossoms and lets the full, real you shine. All my best.


    • monky says:

      Hey S – Thanks for the kind wishes! I hope your trip went smoothly and that all is well round your part of the world.

      The job is going okay i’d say – days are still long, and i’m finding some of the classes hard-going; I hope that as time passes things will improve. Put in my first order this week wooo (the power of a budget).

      Alas my studio space was only for the week, but the experience was valuable nonetheless – helped me grow as an artist, and feel more confident in actually calling myself an artist-teacher. Win. Year two of my course starts up again soon, and i’m looking forward to it.

      A giving creative soul who is unfulfilled? Yup, that sums me up rather too well…! I am making small, yet what I think are important steps towards finding more satisfaction in life, though of course me being me there is still a lot of over-thinking and angst floating around (solo life can be hard at times). I am a work in progress, but at least there’s something going on (and forwards!).

      All the best…