Monday 16th October
Had to deal with my first bona fide punch up in a class today; after the punches had been thrown and one kid was down on his back I had to put myself between an incandescent Year 8 and a door to prevent him leaving the building and kicking the shit out of his attacker. Fun.
A gal who was on my PGCE course is an NQT there; I had to cover 10 mins of her class 'cos she was on the point of snapping and telling them where to go- Kids were flipping entire tables over and hitting each other. She left the classroom in tears after dealing with her form- kids who are supposed to have a better relationship with her and who are supposed to get on. I have to ask- is it really worth it? Any of it? Every child is entitled to an education but surely every teacher is entitled to teach?
At the same time this means that whole sections of society will remain uneducated because they refuse to conform to the behaviour standards I consider acceptable and so I would not teach them. Maybe that would be the ultimate lesson- behave or you don't get any education at all as no-one will teach you and you will not receive any support from the state. Mwhah mwhah mwhah.
MW#1's after skool for TNA, junk food and much laughter courtesy of Senshi and his hi-larious accent. Things feel slightly weird at the mo. I need to try and forget that he's (supposedly) interested; problem being it's rather hard (I bet it is, baby) when all you want to do is curl up under a blanket with someone. As long as it's my orange fleecy blanket of joy and not woollen blanket of itchy doom... me and my skin "so soft" have issues with wool...
I think it's just because I'm tired and fed up with skool and am feeling slightly taken forgranted, but what can I do? I don't want to be all "he's not paying attention to me- I'm going to scweam and scweam until i'm sick!" and throw a strop because I feel slighted or ignored- I would like to think i'm not like that.
I just get pissed off when pertinent texts or emails go unreplied to or I get ignored because it's plain and simple polite to reply or give a little attention. I'm just a friend after all... and as with anyone I expect common courtesy even if you do not have access to my skin, and even more so if you do. I hope I treat people with the same courtesy they bestow upon me; I mean between rants I am fairly easy going so I hope I do.
I honestly have no problem waiting for MW#1, but at the same time I don't want to be left twisting in the wind not knowing what's going on or getting passed over again 'cos interest is lost...
I think hibernation may be the answer... just gotta find me some livers first.
