Monday 17th April
Okay. So though the "gift" of LiveJournal I have discovered officially that I AM A MORON.
I am just at a total loss...
How is it people can utter such kind words to me, saying things I am not used to hearing, so I start to get hopeful and believe and let my guard down, only for me to find out that those words were lies.
I thought of all people I deserved better; I do deserve better. I simply cannot believe this is happening to me again. Opening up for even the shortest time to find my heart gets stepped on.
If I felt somewhat used before I most certainly do now. I haven't shed any tears over this yet- I'm too shocked at the moment to cry. I also feel angry.
Right now I just feel very cold and unhappy.
